Gabsterz Everything Relationship's

Well, here we are again. Fancy meeting you here. This is where I stay stuck in my head, trying to make sense of something that doesn’t make sense – no nickels, no dimes kind of stuff. There is no logic when it comes to emotions and Love is the strongest. You don’t choose who you love – these feelings develop outside of any rational thought patterns. Of course, you can learn to love someone by them growing on you over time but it is rare.

Now, my female friend has moved out and back in 4 different times this month. She is now back with the cousin that kicked her out causing her and I to move in to my house to begin with. They are trying to get the Guiness world record for the most break-ups and make-ups. I would like to give them my blessing and be happy for my friend and my cousin but they’re like puzzle pieces from different puzzles. I don’t care how much you love someone or think that you do, if you’re not compatible that will be a daunting task to go through, and despite your best efforts – the relationship typically ends in failure. She did however stand up and fight for our friendship. She told my cousin, her boyfriend, today anyway – we”ll see about tomorrow, that he will just have to get over it because she want’s me in her life and we can still be friends. That really meant a lot to me to hear that she elevated our friendship to required status.

Well, she has been coming by and visiting and cleans up my mess of a desk while she is here. Granted it is a challenge because I really want her to give me a chance. She gives all these low life, no job having people chance after chance. That is something I really don’t understand because we actually get along with each other extremely well. She actually mentioned today something in the context of If we were in a relationship things would be different, that she is hard to deal with and so forth. That is one of the very few times that she has even thought about the possibility of us being together. I take it as a plus but I know that she keeps my head messed up.

You know, she is Catholic too, and that is one thing that matters a lot to me anyway. I just wish she would embrace that as much as I do and see that what we have together is the best foundation for a healthy relationship currently available. I find myself at a critical juncture in life right now and I don’t know what I want exactly – a mid-life crisis unfolds.