Gabsterz Everything Relationship's

My friend has moved back and forth between my cousin’s and here a few times since my last post. This last time she said she was in love with me and had feelings for me and kissed me – like really kissed me. She then said that we would take it slow. Well, taking it slow would be an overstatement because our situation has went in reverse to the point that we are no longer talking and don’t even know if we are going to be friends anymore.

It all started with a kiss – that is when I fell in love with her. Now, I just sit here wondering what I should do in this situation. I still have feelings for her but I don’t know if she has the loyalty and integrity to seek having a relationship with. I am pretty adamant about lying to me and how I feel about it. It is not an acceptable form of behavior for me and can be a show stopper when it comes to getting into a relationship with someone. I really can’t stand lying because no matter the intent lying is a choice and furthermore done on purpose.

I don’t know if I can just let her back into my life when she keeps running back and forth between here and my cousin’s house. I haven’t moved up in the world to have been in a relationship with her so every time she comes over here and I don’t get a chance we have nothing official going on in regard to a relationship. When she is over there it’s right back to her being his girlfriend and frankly I am growing tired and very frustrated about all of this. I almost lost my temper with my cousin just the other day because he decided he would just pop up over here at my place unannounced. She is like telling me to be on my best behavior – if I had known that she would be leaving just a little bit later that evening to go back over there I would have put some hands on him when he made some smart ass remarks to me. Oh well, I guess all of this is just a lesson in controlling my temper or something like that because it is definitely strange how she says she loves me and then her actions speak otherwise.

Another thing that gets me is how she says she loves me so much and comes over here and steps back into helping out around here and then as soon as she gets the chance she is running away and I am nothing to her anymore. She said that I never had a chance and that she was just using me. That right there hit deep. Then she went on to tell me goodbye and that my cousin gave her everything she needs. I wrote my short goodbye and God bless you message and I blocked her and him on Facebook messenger. I haven’t talked to her since and that has been four days now.

This time with the things she said I am having difficulty just taking in stride and letting it run off my back like water off a ducks back. I don’t know what I should at this point – I am torn.

So, she is back over there and I don’t know right now if I ever want her to come back over here or much less see her. I guess we will find out because I am sure that I will be posting this story for you to read.

Until then – have a blessed day and hope you like this story as it unfolds.