Gabsterz Everything Relationship's

Well, hey there. I am back for another segment of my own relationship challenges. So, my romantic interest keeps going back and forth between my cousins house and mine. I don’t know how to deal with this but it is a lesson in patience and anger management. I understand that she is 18 years younger than me and that this is really the first time that she has been single (well kind of single) in her life. She has no concept of how to be loved correctly. Her idea of love is overshadowed by continued sexual abuse as a child so she never got to experience love in the way that is outlined in the Holy Bible.

Her idea of love is being controlled and abused physically and psychologically. She doesn’t know anything else and is extremely reluctant to try something different, well except for the few days that we were actually girlfriend and boyfriend. That was very short lived because she says she is still in love with my cousin who is a real class act shit show in how he treats her. I have to discipline myself daily just not to go left on my cousin because he has been told to keep his hands off of her. I want to just bust him in the mouth really but if she is just going to keep going back and forth it will not help my situation any.

She still has a room here at my house with all of her stuff here now. She has stayed one night here over the last week and of course has stayed all the other nights over there with him. I can only hope that I can maintain my temper and continue on in patience. I don’t even know if our friendship will make it through all of this self inflicted drama. You are becoming nothing more than a roommate because your efforts regardless of intent are pushing me away.

Listen to this right here. I brought a girl that I have just met back to the house with me a couple of nights. The first night she wasn’t here to meet her but the second time she was and she got jealous of this girl that I brought with me. How can she even think about getting jealous when she bounces back and forth between my cousin and I. You know another thing of contention is that I haven’t had any sexual relations with anyone since June 9th, I mean didn’t even have sex during the three days that we were a couple so I guess that is I guess the main issue or something. I don’t know what to do – I try to stay calm and continue detaching really – as much as I can anyway.

Has anyone else experienced anything remotely close to what I am going through? I would like to hear what everyone has to say about all of this just to bring things into perspective. This is a very challenging situation to say the least. It’s horrific to go through this level of bullshit on a consistent basis. It really just gets old.

I hope to hear some of your thoughts on this soon. Have a great day and be blessed.