Gabsterz Everything Relationship's

So, here I am sitting at my desk on a cool rainy Saturday night by myself. I channel my frustration through this blog, allowing it to be creative rather than destructive. It seems to be a better solution than just letting all that energy go to waste. I think that it is a very therapeutic method of release. I still have lots of room for improvement when it comes to anger management. I tend to get angry and break my own Triple D-S rule (Don’t Do Dumb Shit), and find myself in a far worse position. Learning patience, understanding, emotional intelligence, loyalty, and integrity has taken me half a century of learning. I have had my share of ups and downs, and I know the cliche “experience is justified by one’s mistakes” firsthand. The only way to live is by doing it. I wish I could go back to a younger version of myself and have the knowledge, wisdom, and experience that I have today. How many of y’all would wish the same thing?

As you can probably tell or guess – She is at my cousins again, although I expect her to show up before long – I can’t put an exact timeframe on it, but I kinda have an idea when she is going to come back over here because, well, I have been doing this since May of this year. At least once per month, he trips out on her, and she has to come over here. 10 years ago, I would have already gone over and busted him in the mouth, which may come to that if he lays hands on her again. Perhaps one day she will get enough of the way he treats her. I really, for the life of me, cannot grasp the concept of why anyone stays in an unhealthy and abusive relationship. I understand that it is up to her, and I have definitely gone above and beyond anyone else in her life, and I have been the one person who has been there for her consistently over the last 14 years. For the last 8 months, I have given her a place to come to where she has most of her stuff anyway. I guess the mature thing to do is keep showing her what it looks like when someone really cares about you. She will be a part of my life because she is first and foremost my friend before anything else.

I really hope to see her today. I haven’t heard from her in a couple of days, but her phone is off (needs her shitty boyfriend, my cousin, to be a man and pay her phone bill). I would pay her phone bill if we were in a relationship. Anyone who has ever been with me has had their phone bill taken care of. I see that as a necessity, but then again, I still open every door I can for women, children, and those who are elderly. Being a gentleman may not be so popular today, but I think it is very important, just a sign of respect.

Stay tuned for the next adventure…